Through My Eyes
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Overwhelmed Some days are just so overwhelming that I just want to pull the covers up over my head and not get up until sometime next year. I feel so emotionally raw after yesterday. My emotions were all over the place� up, down, inside, outside, and turned all around. I cried a lot about everything; about losing my mom before really losing her, about my weight, about my hopes, and my dreams. Losing mom really makes me face the reality of what I�ll do once both my parents are gone. For as long as I can remember the only thing I�ve wanted is a family of my own. I want what my girlfriends have �husbands�.children. Sometimes I get so jealous of them. I know their lives aren�t perfect either but they have someone there to support them when push comes to shove. Me, I�ve got no one. I get so angry �why am I all alone? I�m a good person, a good daughter, a great friend� yet here I am all alone. It really sucks. What do I do to make myself feel better? � I eat of course! Great now I�m stuffing my face to stuff my loneliness and all I�m getting is fat. I can�t win. I need to figure out how to sort out all these jumbled emotions. That�s why I need to keep writing. Better to write than to eat. |