Through My Eyes
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Insecurities My insecurities are getting the better of me today. Maybe it�s because I�m not feeling well but nothing seems to be pulling me out of my blue funk. My mind keeps jumping from this to that. First it�s the fear of being alone. Then it�s the weight thing and once that starts then all the negative self-talk starts. �You�re fat�, �You�re ugly�, �No wonder you don�t have anyone in your life, who�d want to be with someone so fat�, and of course it just goes on and on. It�s so hard to break that cycle and of course what do I do�. I eat of course, just another thing to beat myself up about. I�m trying to figure out why I keep doing this to myself but it�s so hard to dig that deep into myself. I�m scared of what I might find out. Yet I know that if I�m ever going to lose my weight for good I�ve got to face those issues head on. I�ve got to feel comfortable in my own skin if I�m ever going to be able to be in a healthy loving relationship. |