Baby Fever
11:12 p.m. - January 10, 2006
Every year at this time I either her about new engagements or pending births. This year it's the latter. I already knew that one of my friends was having a baby. She's due next month. But when I went back to work yesterday there was note on the table from another friend announcing her pregnancy and rumor has it that another teacher's wife is pregnant. While I'm thrilled for them, I'm also a little sad for me. As I sat last night knitting a few rows on a baby blanket for Katy's shower this weekend, I suddenly got all weepy. I've come to realize now more than ever that I really want a family of my own. I love my little cousins and my "nephews" dearly, but they're not mine. I really long to be called "Mommy", but at the moment that seems like such a far off dream. Dating has been non-existent for a long time...just way too much family stuff going on that needed to be dealt with. Now I'm finally getting around to taking care of me. First and foremost I need to heal from my surgery. Then focus on losing the weight. Once that's done I can think about dating again. If I'm lucky I find the right guy. Not one who I think I can "fix", I'm so over those kinds of guys. Besides, I have to wait 18 months before I can get pregnant...doctor's orders!!! So I've got plenty of time to search.
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