Through My Eyes
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The Mirror I�ve been looking at myself in the mirror lately. Not because I�m vain, but because I really haven�t looked at myself in a long time. I needed to stop and take stock. It sounds silly but at my weight I either whip thru the make-up process or I fixate on everything that�s wrong with me. Lord knows I�m my own worst critic. So what did I see� well I still have beautiful eyes, fabulous lips, and pretty good skin. My face is really round because I�m so heavy and I�m still not happy with my latest haircut, but overall not too bad. The body itself needs a lot of work. I carry my weight on my stomach, bottom, and thighs. Big surprise there, now what do I do about it? I can keep overeating and not exercising, and gain more weight. Or I can start looking at eating healthy. I talk a good talk but following through is a whole different thing. I have all the right tools, but I just can�t seem to get it internalized. It�s so frustrating and discouraging. I don�t want to be fat, yet I am. I�m looking at options�weight watchers� surgery� I just don�t know. What I am certain of is that being this heavy is not good. It�s draining me emotionally and physically, and I hate it. |